Archive for September, 2009

30
Sep
09

Scorpio

While I cannot sleep [again!], surely I spend my time jotting around. I love to read horoscope analyses [for perhaps some of you definitely do not respect this], because many of them are true. It is not about knowing the future, but genuinely describing your personality.

Well, I was born under Scorpio sign. What do they say about Scorpio? I love this one [credit for Psychic Connect]:

There are two symbols for Scorpio – the scorpion, with its legendary sting and the eagle, which soars aloft to great heights.

‘I DESIRE’ is the motto for Scorpio. You are intensely emotional and strongly aware of the darker side of human nature. You don’t live on the surface of life, but experience it at its deepest levels. [basically correct].

scorpioYou possess an iron will, a strong ego and a unique personal magnetism. You make a loyal friend and a passionate lover. [absolutely true].

You’re also intuitive, ambitious and have a penetrating mind. You have a burning need to uncover what is hidden, whether it’s a mystery or someone else’s innermost secrets. You’re rarely who you appear to be on the outside and are not easy to get to know. [I love the last sentence, that's me].

You also have a tendency to brood and to bear grudges and can be suspicious and vindictive. [happened mostly].

You are the investigators of the zodiac.

What about you? It is never easy trying to recognize yourself. To say a definite ‘yes’ or ‘no’ to a sentence explaining yourself. Feel free.

30
Sep
09

Tulisanku

Gaya menulismu itu nggak konsisten. Kadang bertutur dengan santun, kadang seenaknya tanpa mengikuti kaidah penulisan yang benar, kadang sok puitis, kadang mengikuti gaya tulisan orang — sok menggunakan kata-kata yang kelihatannya susah supaya terkesan pintar, kadang malah nggak jelas kamu menulis apa. Kamu nggak punya ciri khas.

DSC01424Tell yourself that. Ketika menulis harus dibatasi dengan gaya tertentu, dimana letak kebebasanku untuk bercerita? Karena perbedaan bahasa bisa mengaburkan makna. Dan aku menulis apa yang ingin aku sampaikan. Dengan bahasa yang aku mengerti. Dengan sedikit kejujuran yang aku miliki. Dengan banyak keterbatasan dan carut marut di sana sini, tapi aku berbangga hati dengan semuanya. Bahkan tulisan bisa bermetamorfosis. Tulisan bisa memiliki tendensi. Tulisan bisa penuh arti, atau mungkin kadang tidak berisi.

Sementara banyak orang merasa sulit untuk berekspresi, aku bersyukur karena bisa menulis dengan lancar. Aku tidak bisa menggambar, aku tidak bisa bermusik, aku tidak punya bakat bermain drama. Ini caraku.

Dan suka atau tidak, inilah aku, dan tulisan-tulisanku.

30
Sep
09

Mirror of Erised

credit picture: http://www.polyvore.com

credit picture: www.polyvore.com

I want one. It shows no more or less than the deepest and most desperate desires of our hearts.

I desire, those are the most suitable words for me, myself. That I will not stop at I want.

-me, looking outside the window, realizing how long I haven’t seen the coming dawn, yet again.

26
Sep
09

This Weekend

Oh well, I can’t sleep tonight. I went to bed at 1.30 A.M., just to found out that I was not that sleepy to sleep. So I decided to go back online.

So, I open a document in my eeepc. A US EPA document. Total of 275 pages. I read it. Oh well, to be honest, I am not that diligent. But I like this new topic I am working on. And it is not the matter I like it or not, I am diligent or not, the fact is, I have to read it.

Oh yes I forgot that today is weekend. Is there any difference? Not really. Still the same ordinaries.

Gosh. I desperately want to go Page One!

26
Sep
09

Bookstore in Taipei? Ask Me.

Suka baca novel, komik, majalah? Dan kesulitan mendapatkan novel, komik, atau majalah berbahasa Inggris di Taipei?

Indonesia punya Gramedia, Taiwan punya Eslite. Indonesia punya Toga Mas, Taiwan punya Page One. Indonesia punya TipTop, Taiwan punya Mollie.

Wait for my next report: Hunt for Books in Taipei.

25
Sep
09

Chapter 1 Closing: Won. Own. Now.

Is life about choice? Or is life about winning and losing? Or is it just a long journey?
I am just oversimplifying it.
I wrote stories. I wrote poems. I laughed, I cried. I was happy, and I was sad.
So what? Who even care?
I keep dreaming, but I am awake.
I am reconsolidating myself. Redistribute my thoughts. Restructure my mind. And reset my feelings.
I need to forgive myself.
I won. But I want to win.
I want to say, “I own you”.
Prince of time, get you carriage speed up. I need to heal.
I am waiting for the answer.
But how the answer will come if I don’t even have the courage to ask?
Still, I am asking nothing.
“Really? What about strength you want in every breath you take?”
Yes. I am asking no question. But I am asking for lots of passion.

Now. This very time. When a thought can kill.
Trust me, you never really know me.

-a whisper from an unknown character.

25
Sep
09

Verse 4: When Love Starts with Something So Simple

Takashimaya, Singapura.
Andrew berjalan tanpa melepas pandangannya dari ponsel. Tanpa sengaja ia menabrak seorang gadis.
“Ouch!”, gadis itu terjatuh dan isi tas belanjaannya tumpah.
Andrew buru-buru membantu gadis itu bangun dan dengan tidak enak hati langsung minta maaf.
“Duibuqi”, katanya meminta maaf.
Gadis berambut hitam itu mengambil tasnya sambil berkata, “Meiguanxi”.
“Stephanie?”, Andrew terkejut ketika gadis itu akhirnya mendongak dan wajahnya terlihat jelas.
Gadis itu tak kalah terkejutnya. “Andrew? Haojiubuqian”, katanya sambil mengulurkan tangan.
“Benar-benar long time no see ya, Steph. Aku dengar sekarang kamu kuliah di Belanda?”, tanya Andrew sembari membantu Stephanie memungut barang-barang belanjaannya.
Gadis itu menganggukkan kepalanya. “Begitulah, mama ingin kembali ke Belanda setelah papa meninggal, jadi aku harus menemaninya. Kamu sendiri? Kata Anna kamu sekarang bekerja di perusahaan oil and gas”.
“Iya, sudah empat tahunan. Great job, great salary, hahaha. Lagipula sejak lama aku ingin bekerja di perusahaan itu”, jawab Andrew.
Terdengar melodi Dangerous, singel yang dipopulerkan Akon. Stephanie membuka tasnya dan menjawab panggilan ke telepon genggamnya. “Stephanie”.
Stephanie terlihat mendengarkan, kemudian menjawab,”Okay, I’m back in ten”.
Andrew menyahut, “Kita bisa bertemu lagi, Steph? Lamakah di Singapura?”.
Stephanie tersenyum, “Guess so. I need to go. Sorry, urgent matter. This is my number, call me later okay?”.
Andrew menerima secarik kertas dari Stephanie dan memandang gadis itu pergi melangkah dengan tergesa-gesa menuju stasiun MRT.

Andrew tidak menyangka akan bertemu lagi dengan gadis itu. Sejak Stephanie pindah ke Belanda, Andrew tidak pernah lagi bisa menghubunginya. Tidak dipungkirinya bahwa ia jatuh hati pada gadis itu sejak bertahun-tahun lalu, saat ia pertama kali berbicara dengan Stephanie di lift apartemen.

Tujuh tahun lalu.
Hari itu, Andrew baru saja sampai di bandara Changi. Di sana ia dijemput kakaknya, Ray, yang saat itu kuliah semester akhir di National University of Singapore (NUS). Orangtuanya begitu gembira mengetahui Andrew mendapat beasiswa penuh untuk belajar di School of Civil and Environmental Engineering Nanyang Technological University (NTU). Jadilah ia pindah ke Singapura, dan akan tinggal dengan kakaknya yang sudah lebih dulu ada di sana.
Karena orang tua mereka cukup berada, Ray tinggal di apartemen pribadi di kawasan Thomson, bukan di apartemen HDB (Housing Development Board) milik pemerintah yang fasilitasnya terbatas. Jadilah Andrew tinggal di sana, dan dalam beberapa hari ia diajak keliling Singapura untuk mengenal negara kecil itu lebih dekat.

Hari itu hari Kamis. Andrew berangkat ke kampusnya jam 1o pagi. Ketika melewati taman di belakang apartemennya, Andrew melihat seorang gadis kecil duduk di dekat air mancur, memandang ke kejauhan. Andrew berlalu saja tanpa memperhatikan lebih jauh.
Sekitar jam 10 malam, Andrew pulang dari kampusnya. Ketika melewati tempat yang sama, Andrew masih melihat gadis kecil itu duduk di literally, spot yang sama. Andrew heran melihatnya, namun karena merasa capek dan toh ia tidak mengenal gadis kecil itu, Andrew tetap berjalan menuju apartemen.
Pintu lift yang baru saja menutup terbuka lagi. Andrew mendongak, dan melihat gadis kecil yang tadi dilihatnya di taman masuk. Gadis itu tersenyum. Andrew memberanikan diri bertanya, “You sit by the pond all day?”.
Gadis kecil itu sedikit terkejut, lalu menjawab, ”Yes, how do you know that? Are you spying on me or something?”
Andrew tertawa kecil. “Just guessing. What did you do there?”
“I want to draw a picture”, jawabnya halus.
Andrew melihat gadis kecil itu tidak membawa peralatan gambar apapun. “Then, where is your drawing? I don’t see any”, kata Andrew.
Gadis itu menatap mata Andrew. “I am just waiting. When nature calls me to draw, I will. It is important to know how it speaks to you, so you can draw it in its way”, gadis itu tersenyum lagi.
Andrew terdiam. “Nature’s call?”, tanyanya.
“Weird? Don’t write because you have to write. Don’t draw because you have to draw. If you believe, nature sends many signs for us. Each with different meaning. And I just copy them into drawings”, gadis itu menjawab dengan lancar.
“Why?”
“Because nature is a mother. It is a she. She nurtures us. And I adore her. A lot”, sahut gadis itu.
Andrew tercenung sejenak, lalu tersenyum dan mengulurkan tangan. “Andrew”, ia memperkenalkan dirinya.
Gadis kecil itu menyambut, “Stephanie”.




Me in Words

Welcome to my blog. As you may or may not know, I have just started to write this blog around a year ago. I merely think that my writings are value-free, but do not hesitate to judge, though.
I am currently a PhD student in Taiwan. Studying chemical engineering, minor in environmental engineering. Love it :)

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